A little more about me…
I’ve been through the deepest darkest depression of my life, several failed (thank God) suicide attempts, PTSD, and anxiety. I was diagnosed in my early 20s with chronic depression and was told that I’d have to be on medication my entire life. However, I didn’t agree with this diagnosis.
After the birth of my first son, I got post-partum depression. The thoughts and feelings I had during this time of my life were downright scary. I had no job, a husband who was mentally and psychologically abusive, a new mom and scared I wasn’t doing anything right. I was also breastfeeding, so medication was out of the question.
A few years later, I left my husband and I was the happiest I had been in over 10 years. It’s amazing how a toxic situation can cause even deeper depression and anxiety than you already have. Unfortunately, only 3 months after separating from my husband, we got back together. I wanted a father for my child and I did love this man. So I thought we could work it out. I did eventually get away from my ex-husband, but not before having a second child with him, buying a house, cars and having the abuse escalate to sexual assault. You can read all about How I Got Out of An Abusive Relationship here.
A new mental illness.
Back to my depression. After the final separation with my ex, I gained a new mental illness, PTSD. I had no idea normal people could get this, I thought it was an ailment reserved for war heroes. After my therapist had diagnosed me, my physician put me on anti-anxiety and depression medication. Honestly, those drugs saved my life. I’m not a huge proponent of taking drugs in the first place, but I knew I needed some extra help. These medications were necessary for my sanity. But my firm belief is and still is to this day that depression, anxiety, and PTSD can be handled without a life sentence of drugs. And I was determined to prove it.
I was on anxiety/depression medication for about 1 year after my separation from my ex. During my separation, I started dating my best friend who helped me get out of that situation. Life started to seem somewhat normal again. So normal that I was able to stop taking all the medication I was on.
Surgery and Marriage.
A few years later my best friend proposed to me. Before the marriage, I wanted to have a surgery I’ve wanted since after my boys were born. So about 5 months before our wedding date, I had this major surgery I wanted so badly. No one tells you that if you are prone to depression surgery can trigger it. Several months after our wedding, I got back on anti-depressants. Again, I knew I needed extra help but did so with the intention that this was not a permanent sentence.
After about 2.5 years, I decided it was time to get off medication again. My doctor approved and with several tweaks to my diet and reducing alcohol intake, I weaned off the medication. I’m happy to say that I’ve been medication free for over two years now, with no signs of going back to it.
I do still have bouts of depression here and there, but they are now manageable and I have a great system in place to make sure I don’t get that deep again. For the first time in my life, I’m living abundantly, gratefully and full of true bliss. I have an amazing family, an amazing husband who is also my best friend, awesome kids (who drive me up the wall sometimes) and an amazing support system. I’m also finally living my life’s purpose and helping others find their bliss. Whether that be through my blog or by being their coach.
I help those who have let depression run their life for far too long and are ready to make the change in their life so they can finally live the life they always knew they could have but just didn’t seem like they could get. My coaching program helps people push past those mental barriers that have kept them from being a successful mom, wife, friend, and entrepreneur. If you’re ready to stop living the depressive cycle that has kept you from living the life you DO truly deserve, then it’s time we talk!
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